A day in the sun: Fish Hoek 2012

Last weekend, Cape Town weather totally surprised us and gave us those beautiful but rare days...a lovely day to be outside.  BEACH DAYS!!!  So my twin and I*Rox* and our polygamist boyfriend Chris went to spend the day in Fish Hoek.

We played in the water...let me rephrase that we put our feet in the cold water.  There is no way I am ever going to swim in this city when the water is sooo cold.  In Aliwal North my hometown we have warm springs I refuse to swim in freezing water plus my body is not exactly bikini friendly.

After taking loads of pics, walking and talking on the beach, Rox tanning, me trying to find shade because there is no way I am tanning...we went for a lovely drive up Chapman's Peak.  Even if you say you are not a believer, when you see that magnificent view, you know there is a Higher Being or a God somewhere responsible for such beauty.  Sorry Helen building bolders to hold up the mountain is all you did, but thanks*huge grin*.

To end any beautiful day, food must be included.  We had a very late lunch at a place called Marine Wharf in Hout Bay. 

It felt lovely to be just "a normal person" again.  With that being said, we still had to go back to my room and do our PR report, bummer.  The joys of being a B.Tech student.

MY big fat BIG dream.

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Am I the only person who finds the title just weird, two BIGS in one sentence or in the title rather...well this is a blog, rules don't apply I guess.

I took a step closer to my BIG dream this year, I moved to Cape Town.  Getting into the actual dream which is being a fashion buyer is turning out to be tricky.  So I am romanticising the situation and hoping that God has a better plan.  Was talking to someone last week who said in order for me to get into the buying industry, I must have a Textile background.  I don't have that right now, but I am willing to get the necessary qualifications again, even though am over this studying story.

Time will tell...maybe I have another purpose in life.  Who knows, when one door closes, all the windows fly open...naturally.

Am grateful...

Ha ha ha ha, I have to laugh at this...you know life has kicked you in your non-existant balls when the first thing you ARE thakful for is a bar of chocolate.  For the friends who bought me this piece of heaven because they knew it would make me happy just for a minute, thank you.  Not forgetting the ones that ate it with me and played along in the "What makes BUBBLY milky chocolate so divine" game, bless you too.

I will forever be grateful for my two older sisters who do not expect anything from me, they let me be.  Something I need right now, when words fail me.

Lastly, for the people who keep saying get out of bed, will do the praying for you.  JUST GET UP.  I see you...

Conventional is a good fallback position isn't it?

I agree 100 percent, especially if you like me a Taurus who cannot live without routine, then conventional is the way to go.  I am the way I am because I cannot handle disappointment or rejection.  So I avoid things that will make me doubt myself.  I do however know how to survive afterwards, but when you experience it at that point in time its not a nice feeling.

However that does not mean I will not try new things, just ease me into it and make me believe I am in control of the situation.  Make me see the benefits and promise me it will be worth it in the end.

Boring is good for me, as long as I have control...most people will say conventional is boring, those are people who do not thrive to control situations like I do.  Lucky buggers, while I sit on the fence watching life pass me by because of my stubborn tendencies, they live. 

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This is a lonely place to be in.  To wake up and not know how to feel.  So you wake up, go for a run, take a shower and be part of the day.  It does not matter the fact that you dead inside or the fact that nothing makes sense anymore, you have to show up.   So you laugh at their jokes, you reply to what people are saying and act as normal as possible.

Then you go back to your room, put the mask away, the room that is coincidentally in the corner in the basement, your dungeon the only place that makes sense.  You eat your misery and pain away, because that is the only thing you can control at the moment.

To think beyond today is scary, so I live for the next hour.  I cannot promise anything further than that, am sorry.

You cannot chase two rabbits at the same time.

Lord behold anybody who can take the time to chase any rabbit, those little cute things are fast...I say shoot them rather.  Problem solved!

This made me think of something I have been making excuses for.  Yet the truth is going off like my alarm clock in the morning, and I keep snoozing it.  We all out here, trying to establish ourselves, running around trying to make money, get degrees that will hopefully make life easier in the promised future.  Never mind that we have no certainty of being part of the future but we invest in it anyways.  It is better to be prepared, than to show up empty handed right?  See how fear creeps up, in places you did not even think it exists.

So we ignore life's little pleasures that are presented now, because we are adamant that later on will enjoy them thoroughly.  Overlooking that later will have its own excuses, that will postpone to later again.  Please am not saying do not have dreams or to respect deadlines, but look at this angle and enjoy now.

Wish I could utter these words to someone close to me, without it looking like am trying to stop his hustle.  But certain truths are better learnt first hand.  Better yet its never too late to learn anything, experience and life teaches you this.  You just have to hope that the people around you will have the patience to wait till you get this lesson.

I am thankful for...

Last week I decided that am going to put up 3 things I am grateful for every week...in no certain order.  Today, I woke up and followed yet another link out of sheer curiosity.  The link led me to a another link called KidsGiveMeHope.com.  Here I found a story that made me smile and cry at the same time...I highly suspect that the scarlet wave hence the tears streaming down my face.  I am grateful for this because it made me count my blessing even more.

"Today a friend told me about the kid she babysists who has muscular development problems.   At school when the kids have to run a race, he always finishes waaaay behind the other kids.  His elementary school classmates do not leave or sit down when they are done running.  They stand cheer for him until he finishes.  SOMETIMES FOR UP TO 20 MINUTES."

Do keep people and things that remind you about how kind and beautiful the world can still be.